People change. Feelings change.

Time will pass and you will move on.

I do believe that. 

But the thing that hurt me the most, is the fact that you broke my heart.
Its so broken that I can't even feel a thing.

I can cry about it and its okay.
Because I'm used to it.
I've been this way before.

I spent 15 months living out a lie and I was blindfolded.
You used me for a purpose.
You used me to forget all those bitter feelings you had.
Because you were lonely and needed someone to get your mind off her.
You knew I fell hard.
And you took advantage of that.
You mis-used me.
You knew very well that it was impossible for you to be with her and thats why you picked me, as a solution.

You lied and lied.

We could have just been friends, but you insisted the opposite.
Insisted hard.
And knowing that you were thinking of her, the whole time you were with me,
has deeply cut me.
You have no idea.
You don't know me.

What are words, if you don't mean them?

I've heard enough lies from guys.
I am not the best. 

I know that she will always place first in your heart no matter how hard you deny it.
I'm just right under her.
I'm always the second option.

Sometimes, in life, you have to learn to let go.

Your a good guy. You really are.
I am sure that there is someone out there meant for you.
Unfortunately, that person is not me.
And I am no longer yours.

I won't deny the fact that I still have feelings for you, but even though I still do.

I hate you. I really really do.
You make me sick.

You talk to me with words.

I look at you, with feelings.

Maybe one day, I will forgive you.

But in the meantime, I need my own personal space.

Who knows, one day we will meet again.
If not, its just not meant to be.

- S -