The night that i feel the same feeling that i had with "that night" when i decided that i want to leave.

Dear dear dear dairy, i really cant take it anymoree, can you please send me an angle and guide me what to doo, im soo done with thinking. Im feeling soo crab atm. soo sick and bad. Today was epic for me. Epic as in bad. My mum might wont allow me to go to Heidi's because she thinks its like a outside party. and then i got victor on stress. its all because of my mother fucker sister in law that dsnt pick up the mother freaker fone, and created all this crab. and i hate Mrs B soo soo much i really feel like jst goin up to her and express all my anger. And today was absolutely shit to me because i feel like such a crab and everything! and the way you go around girl soo much i feel really uncomftable with it, do u see me going around with other guys? i dont. it kills me inside and feel so soo uncomftable. i know your going to say we are jst friends. but the thing that makes me feel is that you and the girls are more than friends. im in my bedroom now really dont know what to do. My hand stinging badly. Having a really sore throat it hurts soo much that i want my mother could be here, im getting sick. I got the flue from someone. I really dont liek this pain in my throat. i cry when im sick, and this time. its really painfull i cant help it. Had strapsel but it didnt work. Infact it hurted even more.
was going to talk to kaito abit more on facebook, but Mrs B that stupid person came and took the broadband off me. i feel soo upset. because our problem is not solve yet and i have more problems comning up, cuz im worrying how m i going to take the broad band back and give it back to Free. Im soo stress i dont know what to do. I dont want to go to the psychologist, because its really making me uncomftable as well. i jst want to be alone. Left alone. I hate this world, i really do.