Wound's

Its always either morning/afternoon/ or jst a time b4 bed time. I jst go so upset that i don't know what could i do. its seem like. My wound jst seems like, it gets bigger and bigger each time. I think its true that my Dr said that. i might not be completely healed. But i will be defentnaly feel be better. But there jst always a moment in everyday that i feel so upset that i couldnt help myself and jst couldnt find any meaning of life. Do u think its the causes of previouse problems? I hope not...cuz, i dont want to go back to that night. That night was the most horrible night that i had ever suffer and survived thru. Tonight felt like half way of that feelin. It hurts soo much inside and i dont know y.
I hate the psychologyyyy. i never wna go there ever again. I jst dont. I want to leave this school. Mayb go to Como. watever, jst any school. Public school please. and i want my mum to b at home with me. so i can see her everyday like usual when i was at Tawau. Everyday right after school, go home only to see mum/ go to work jst to see my mum.


saw this cute picture from the internet.
what i feel like

I feel like keep writing and writing. but i jst run out of words to write, but i still wna write. till my hands are too tired for anything else
Cuts are so much less painfull than the pain im havin atm. Someone please get me out of this nightmare. What The Hell Even Brought Me Into This Gawd Damn Night Mare !!! i wna cry..cry all nightt, thats all i know