A place where i express my feelings and makes me feel like someones making the time for me to listen to me. although not understanding me, but still reading my blog.
Eatin my Birthday Cake that Sophie Opi bough for meee :D ❤ Thanks Soph
On nomm nomm ❤
Presents!! ❤ WEEEEEEEEEEEE ! Finally!! First time in my life :D
Thoes above were my birthday presents :) ❤ Happy Birthday Celine! its been the best birthday evar! :*
In the morning, me and my brother. Chillin at the park and calming me down.
I love you Yik ❤ very much kor kor :*
Thanks for coming all the way in the morning just for me. Im touched, and ur lap, shoulder and hugs that provided to me. Its like u know me so much. Mayb Buddha bless you kor ❤ wo ai ni
Hello, so i am here, in Science. Which is the 2nd last period of the school. Im feeling so tired. It has been like this for a week. Probably is because of the lond weekend. My sleeping has been stuffed up. During long weekend, i sleep at 3 or 4 pretty much eveyday. So now im just like pretty screwed.
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Today's my birthday, it dsnt feel like my birthday at all.
Last night. i was so upset. My heart hurted so so much. I wanted to go to Sarah's room to tell her whats wrong. But then i was feeling too sick to get there.
My eye was filled with water and my heart was just hurting so much that I could not breath at all. Then I told Yik whats wrong on facebook. He didn’t replied for like half an hour or 10 mins or so. Then I just keep on crying myself. Listening to the songs that Kaito gave me when we were still together. Im so hurt. Knowing that I am not good enuf to match up to him and having him to compaire me with the others.
After crying myself for awhile, Yik replied to my msg. He started to comfort me about it, and I started to get better as well. We didn’t slept the whole night. We talked from 3 I think? Until 5 oclock he lieave his house to come over to see me. He said his just coming for saying hi. But, he end up comforting me and talking me thru things.he told me its not worth it to be sad of. And it was really stupid of me crying infront of a guy that I first meet that day. Its just so retarded. But for a guy like him, I feel his warmness. When I was tired he asked if I would like to have a rest on his shoulder. I said no for the first few times. Afterwards, the sun was killing my yees, so I deceided to ly down on the bench, then I accidently hitted my head. So I said “ouch” like normal people would. Then he checked on me as am I okay. I said I was fine, the he told me to rest on his lap. And his fine with it, I said no, but afterwards, I end up resting on his lap. I told him that his lap is so uncomfy and stuff. But the truth is that it is pretty comfy and I actually feel aslp on it. He was sweet. He blocked the sun out for me with his hand. I was breathing abit heavily, because I found it abit hard to breath, cuz. Inside im missing Kaito so much. Then he tot I was crying, he said don’t cry and I said im not crying, I was just breathing abit heavy. We stayed there for awhile, until we started to talk about my feelings and about kaito agn. I felt really upset. That tme. I actually cried. I cried so hardly. Just knowing that someone that I loved so much is not mine anymore. I die alittle bit inside. He said would I like to cry on his shoulder, I tot lying down crying makes me look retarded and very stupid…so I got up. And I cried………..crying out all my sorrows and all the pain. I can feel him pressing me into him. Not very hard, but I can still feel it. I was just so upset I don’t know what was in my mind, kept on crying and crying and crying for the next 8 mins. He kept bending down to look at my face, but I really don’t want him to see my face whn im upset. Because, only dad and Kaito are the ones that im comftable to show my actual crying face to. I wiped my tears and still looking down. When I was about to cry once more. He touched my cheek. And go “obuubuu” or something like that. To make me laff ofcourse. And as usual, it worked perfectly. I laffed then I wanted to cry again. He kept on doing it until I was actually really feeling abit happy. Im so glad that he came this morning. He just seems like he knows how upsetting I am and he understands when I say im fine when im not. He knows that I am still not fine. I got on his skate board. I played with it. (only stand on it ofcourse) and then he was like here I will teach you, I was like hell no! I was scared. He hued me on my waist and pulled me along . it was fun. I was about to tell him that kaito did this to me too, but i think i should not because during the whole time that he was talking to me, i mention about Kaito every 2 mins. Thank you Yik for actually being there and come to my school to comfort me when i was very upset. Thank you
Heyy pipz, before i share anything or write anything down yet. i would like u to watch a re-tarded vedio of me eating my birthday cake (left over cupcakes from school today) ft Jo and Sarah and Holly my roomie which was on her side of the room surfing net ❤
Anyways, i was so tired this morning, like. Legit!
i skipped the first 3 period. Cuz i got really sick and tired, so i went to the Health Centre.
Finally got some proper rest and then afterwards. i felt better. Went to soccer trainning too, it was SICK!
so glad that i went. Learnt new skills :P
But i gotta practice to get perfect.
Really feel like Dancing. I wish i never end Dancing.
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Im gna get back on dance again. Gna train myself back.
Ohh and! did i mention? Man U won Arsenal by 8-2 yeah bitch! after watching da match. I got a masive kick with some malay boys that goes for liverpool / arsenal. lol, it was epic. So proud of Man U, keep it up Man U ❤
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My birthday in 2 and half hours ❤
My Roomiee ❤❤❤ Blowing ballons :*
Gna have a lil pool celebration. With ma womens ❤ xx.
But Double Maths on my Birthday? Great ❤ hahah c: ohh well. Wont be THAT bad :P
For Jun,I am actually going to accept him as a brother. Nothing more then a baby bruu ❤
Im actually so happy. I got so many people that loves me. Kaito, Sarah, Joanna, Prim,Vanessa, Kevin, Ko Shen Lau, Jun. Daddy & Mummy. John, Jesslyn ❤ That's already enough for me. Thanks Buddha and God ❤
Weekly Quote - Give more than what you take ❤
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And jusy a shout out to my crazy Bestfriend ❤ Sarah chAO! shes feeling upset.
And im a type of person that dont like repeating things. I cant stand repeating myself over and ovver again. I might had been harsh on her while shes having hard times. But, its me. But i did try. I really hope she gets well soon. I love her so much my Bestie ❤ God be with her tru her hard times and guid her tru the dark and ruff path way.
Going out with Sarah today was epic! My challenge today was walking thru the bridge at the river (canning bridge) and then walking over the head road thing. chinese its called "tian qiao" .
Had Fish and chip's for dinner, now im soo full! i think i gained weight :I oppcy, heheheh ❤
In love with this song.
:) BE STRONG BABY ❤
i think shes so pretty :) i wna be like her ❤ Christina Grimmie
Wow, well, i just kinda jsut notice again that i didnt write my blog for a little bit. Im so sorry to sarah, because shes pretty much like the only one that reads my blog so it dsnt really matters to the others that dsnt reads my blog. But yeah larh. Didnt write my blog for ages. So, today we went to city. and Habour Town.
There was Alisha, Hannah, Elyse and Cassie. with me Joanna and Sarah.
Wellwe saperated after that. But hey guess what? i had the most amazing time. I swear. i really love it when i go shopping with Sarah and Joanna. I actually get to go see cloths and try them on and they give me their honest oppinion. I feel so comftable with Joanna and Sarah everytime when we go shopping.
This morning, we went to had Dim Sum, at "Gam Tong" - NorthBridge. costed us like 40 dollar for 3 of us to eat. We had really nice convo's with the lady in the restaurant, she was really really nice. and while we were eating, we were like little kids. Creating our name braclet. Ill show u what it is..hold on❤
And we bought Friendship braclet which can tell u what ur mood is. Its really cute and i love it ❤
And Sarah bough me a wallet which i really really really really really really *1000000000000000000000000000 L❤VE IT!!
And a top which we are going to wear on Sunday ❤
Today is the most amazing day ever! I love my bestiess ❤ :* Joanna & Sarah!
Some how, im missing, mum, dad, John so much...i miss my brother. Today im feeling so upset. not because of anything, its just a mental thing. I think, after a person went tru depression. The depression always comes along with you and never leave. Only if i get to go back and be what i am 3 years ago.
I got upset during soccer. Because im such a bad player..but im still trying..
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at swimming, im really scared of deep water, not even joking.
But, i just hope..i could be a better person...and not affraid of it and go with what i could and get ride of the affraidness.
It still feels like when im trying..im like still doing it for tat person.
I really want to go home mummy....
i want to leave here.....
8 days till my birthday, and i dont even feel anything at all. Theres nothing to be excited about...its just going to be a normal day. It started from i get spoil on my birthday, no school because its National Day and then get to sleep in the same bed as Mummy and Daddy. and then in the afternoon, i get to go shopping or ride bike with jordan. and then at night, i go eat dinner with daddy mummy, and then later in the night Jordan's sister (JIN) brigns us to Karaoke or i sleep over at Jordans placee.
1st year in perth...
I got a present from Jordann. i got candals. those ones that smells really nice and for dinner ones. it smelt really nice, i still havent use it yet. still not opened in my room C:
2nd year in perth birthday...
John took me out for a late birthday dinner....
3rd year.... (this year)
Crab happened...sure is diffrent now. About this time last year, had RiverCruise. and for my birthday wish, i wished for meeting someone special and being able to celebrate my next birthday with that special someone. But now. heehee, im fine la C: His still special for me, until. That another special comes and Register to show me how special he is to me. I was amazingly happy with him, and he was the wrong one. What would it be like when i meet the right one? Best things are things tat you wait. Im waiting for that last one. His not going to be the first one for sure. Because, the last one is always the right one. Which reminds me of this song C:
Putting tap over it because i cbb holiding itt :I not that im lazy or anythingg, heehee :P
Me and sarah :*
I like mondays, the time table is good, hehehe, cuz no science and sose :P and maths was alrightt C:
After school was going to play soccer, but ermm, decided to go have a swim in the pool :P it was greeatt. Im still practecing so hard for myself to get over with my afraid of water.....I believe, one day. I'll be fine and not scared of the water no more! Challenge accepted.
You know. Feeling really unsecure lately. its just like, been awhile since someone tell me good night , sweet dreams and things like that. I want to be loved agian.........
Feel abit alone. Things just never work out.
Although im happy outside. Im still diein abit in the inside because im feeling lonely and unwanted. I want to go home to mummy and daddy...I miss them..
Atleast i want their love noww.
Daddy, cheer mee up please :( im feeling really down right now :(
i wna cry.
Somebody heal me pls.
This weekend had been the best for me. it was soo great, on saturday, we went to city and habour town and then we took soo much photo's but stupid sarah didnt putted the memory card inside her camera, soo. it was pretty much like taking photos but not having them taken, hahahah :) Did soo much shopping too! and im broke now, but mum left another 50 dollar in my room larh :P my "spare money" :P tehhhehehe. Ohh and! i got my belly ring changed!! soo freakin happy!! :* i damn like it soo much, its like a black one and has a crystal star on itttt. Its amazingg:)
What ever it is, i just had so much fun this week end laa C: been one of my bestt weekends.
Thanks to Prim ,Joanna and Sarah plus Vanessa C: Thanks guys so much :)
and sarah, if ur reading my blog.
Hope ur happy finally i updated my blog so you would have something to readdd, haha. u stalkerrr :P
